Hello Darkness, my dear old friend. I sit alone, late yet early fleeting thoughts of mortality throbbing in my head like a migraine. A sickly sweet scent of beer still on my breath, been weeks since I last heard from you, now you crawl back into my bed like we hung out an hour ago. Darkness, you sweet seductress, pulling me back with those deep thoughts and soft heartbeats. Playing my own fears like a track on your favorite album. Death and dying on repeat in my mind. Your warm body cuddled up next to me, unwanted yet I can't help but hold you. Darkness, my favorite mistake, a quick glance and I'm yours again. Sitting awake, forever just for
A future for you and I. by deviantHobo, literature
Literature
A future for you and I.
I yearn to hold your hand, so tiny I shake as I reach towards it. So far away but I would bleed to be closer. Close enough to see your eyes, mirrors of my soul, close enough to see your smile as you see me. I do not think you'd smile, fear would fill your eyes. You would see me as I am, a monster without a reason. I yearn to see you, even for a moment to look upon you and know I have done good and right. I am so afraid of you, that you are too far away from me. I fear that what I have done is not right, not just. I fear for you, to live a life without me, or with me. I am afraid of the fence I sit upon, afraid of either side I could jump to.
I am best know not for my words but as my words. Text thrown across a page like blood splatter on the wall. Able to be seen and interpreted but never known, clear glass fogged by confusion. Able to be ignored or observed. Able to be forgotten or recalled. I am best as words, they never fail me, always bounding from my mind onto pages like faithful dogs ready for the journey ahead. My words are my fire and with them I could burn the world, but I love to hold my flame. I am best as simply words, paragraphs to describe the world I see, sentences to calm my hectic mind. Able to be erased or chiseled into stone. I am best as only words, I cannot f
Only an hour later he stirred sitting up and looking out the window at the bright sky. She had let him sleep on his own as usual. He felt restless as if he'd just been running, as if he'd just been scared but he remembered nothing and didn't feel anything but hungry. When had he last eaten? What time was it? He got up knowing she had left for work, he noticed the book on the table her bookmark in between a few pages he never disturbed her place, he knew every word in the books she read, even the ones not by him. He had given her every book she owned, first editions of his own work all hand signed at the start. He knew she'd never sell them, h
Hours past in sleepless seconds for Susan, night turned to dawn, which became day. She awoke alone in a bed for two, she knew he would not be there. She knew he was lying to her; he was doing it out of love he didn't want her to worry, but she did. She got up stretching and rubbing her eyes. After showering and dressing she left the master bedroom and walked through the halls towards the another room that she called the cave. When she entered all the lights were off and the windows covered with black out curtains, the only light shed in the room was from a single computer monitor which shed an eerie glow on Susan's husband who was busy writin
Sweat and tears running down my bloodied body, my lungs chained with agony denying me breath. My heart beating, pushing my life from my open wounds. Desperation fills my eyes as I stare up at you, unable to feel anything but misery. I cannot understand, will not understand how you can cut me so deeply, wound me so profoundly. Cannot deny your power over my mind, cannot deny your enslavement of my heart. Never reciprocated, never reflected off you I pump my love at you but all you do is slice away my soul. A plastic surgeon attempting to make me what I'm not, trying to deny me my inner self. My love is just for you, and if I must lose myself,
Every moment frozen in time, embraced in a frozen wonderland. No chill is felt, only warmth. Seconds dance into minutes as we lay, uncaring to the world around us, so perfectly together like two matched pieces to a simple puzzle. How easy it is to simply look at you, how easy it is to simply talk to you. Corrupted in all the right ways, so harmoniously dark and wicked. Each bite a spark of ecstasy, every scratch a rush of adrenaline. How easily you can manipulate me, how willingly malleable I am for only you. Oh you, my one true love. Oh you, my one addiction. Oh you, the one that made me who I am. Oh you, the one I can never see through. The
A sense of self, lost in the cold winter wind. Blown snow hiding the truth, how was I so blinded? A hand to glass the chill taking my breath but it's your beauty that never let me draw it back in. Seeing you through the storm I can make out every beautiful line, but my mind is yearning for a flaw; none is found. Feeling weak, feeling like I walked a thousand miles to get to you. Fallen on the ground crying out for you, but only those who shoved the knife in my back come to my aid. Enemies wearing masks of friends, friends pretending to be enemies. Confusion the true name of the snow, doubt the truth behind the glass. My heart yearns to let me
Laying awake, not from the pain, but from the fear of what tomorrow brings. Living in the same day, feeling around the same places blind as a flash-banged soldier. Fear for what my dreams will reveal, death is only the beginning of my pains. Insomnia derived from a deeper darkness, every moment I'm asleep even while awake. The culture fueling every whim of the rebel, drugs and suicide the only escape left, sleep cannot release me any longer. Smoke billowing from my skin, just another day in my waking nightmare, just another day of delirious rambling. Drugs in my veins thicker then blood, blood in my brain fueling the fire of brain-death. Shad
Hello Darkness, my dear old friend. I sit alone, late yet early fleeting thoughts of mortality throbbing in my head like a migraine. A sickly sweet scent of beer still on my breath, been weeks since I last heard from you, now you crawl back into my bed like we hung out an hour ago. Darkness, you sweet seductress, pulling me back with those deep thoughts and soft heartbeats. Playing my own fears like a track on your favorite album. Death and dying on repeat in my mind. Your warm body cuddled up next to me, unwanted yet I can't help but hold you. Darkness, my favorite mistake, a quick glance and I'm yours again. Sitting awake, forever just for
A future for you and I. by deviantHobo, literature
Literature
A future for you and I.
I yearn to hold your hand, so tiny I shake as I reach towards it. So far away but I would bleed to be closer. Close enough to see your eyes, mirrors of my soul, close enough to see your smile as you see me. I do not think you'd smile, fear would fill your eyes. You would see me as I am, a monster without a reason. I yearn to see you, even for a moment to look upon you and know I have done good and right. I am so afraid of you, that you are too far away from me. I fear that what I have done is not right, not just. I fear for you, to live a life without me, or with me. I am afraid of the fence I sit upon, afraid of either side I could jump to.
I am best know not for my words but as my words. Text thrown across a page like blood splatter on the wall. Able to be seen and interpreted but never known, clear glass fogged by confusion. Able to be ignored or observed. Able to be forgotten or recalled. I am best as words, they never fail me, always bounding from my mind onto pages like faithful dogs ready for the journey ahead. My words are my fire and with them I could burn the world, but I love to hold my flame. I am best as simply words, paragraphs to describe the world I see, sentences to calm my hectic mind. Able to be erased or chiseled into stone. I am best as only words, I cannot f
Only an hour later he stirred sitting up and looking out the window at the bright sky. She had let him sleep on his own as usual. He felt restless as if he'd just been running, as if he'd just been scared but he remembered nothing and didn't feel anything but hungry. When had he last eaten? What time was it? He got up knowing she had left for work, he noticed the book on the table her bookmark in between a few pages he never disturbed her place, he knew every word in the books she read, even the ones not by him. He had given her every book she owned, first editions of his own work all hand signed at the start. He knew she'd never sell them, h
Hours past in sleepless seconds for Susan, night turned to dawn, which became day. She awoke alone in a bed for two, she knew he would not be there. She knew he was lying to her; he was doing it out of love he didn't want her to worry, but she did. She got up stretching and rubbing her eyes. After showering and dressing she left the master bedroom and walked through the halls towards the another room that she called the cave. When she entered all the lights were off and the windows covered with black out curtains, the only light shed in the room was from a single computer monitor which shed an eerie glow on Susan's husband who was busy writin
Sweat and tears running down my bloodied body, my lungs chained with agony denying me breath. My heart beating, pushing my life from my open wounds. Desperation fills my eyes as I stare up at you, unable to feel anything but misery. I cannot understand, will not understand how you can cut me so deeply, wound me so profoundly. Cannot deny your power over my mind, cannot deny your enslavement of my heart. Never reciprocated, never reflected off you I pump my love at you but all you do is slice away my soul. A plastic surgeon attempting to make me what I'm not, trying to deny me my inner self. My love is just for you, and if I must lose myself,
I'm sorry, but once was is now the past. Just a dark blotch on the tapestry I call my life. What once was love is now lost, replaced by stronger desire, I yearn to make the pain go away, but the burn is slower then I want. The smoldering ashes of what I once held dear now sits in the distance, all but forget except the tower of smoke. But life goes on, and more shall come, for even when cities burn down the citizens do not vanish but rebuild on the rubble of the past. They build stronger, they build higher, they build with wiser plans. I shall not build alone, as I can not rebuild in solitude. You may be gone, but the hole that remained is no
I am what you hate, disguised as what you love. Simply a ghost dawning the figure of subtle romance. No longer a being that lives on the plane of which you do, out of touch and reach. I am hate personified, rage and fear isolated and pure. I am what you don't want to see, what you don't want to believe. Just a simple being with untold mystery. I am and always will be just another statue in the park, just another pebble on the road, just another flower in the garden. I am and forever will be hidden from those who don't look, and ignored by those who don't care. I am a figure of immense intrigue, a figure of uncanny wisdom. Simply there until I
Trusted by the ones I love, I fall, never to rise above what I need, never to achieve what I want. Joy dances at my finger tips forever out of reach, pity holds me back, like chains on a great stone wall, hands bleeding softly but never running dry. The gentle drip of insanity drips through my skull, needles prodding and poking my brain forever making me feel pain, but all is numb, all is lost, but I am found. The light rushes through the dark but is gone, never to be seen again. I am lost, never to be seen again.
To the Disorthodox Genius,
During the short time I've spent in your company,
You've grown important to my soul,
Turned somewhat special,
Gifted me delightful moments,
Giggles a smile.
Though you are leaving me,
To do things I cannot support,
I've learnt to let it rest
Hoping not to miss something more precious,
That something carrying a grin.
But today is not special
For what you bring others
Today is special
For you simply being here
The miracle of your existence.
So, short of inspiration,
I can only gift you this:
Wishes of a Happy Birthday,
"Sealed wi
A quiet world,
alone within.
A forest of despair,
he hidden amongst the trees.
Gentle rain,
stealing warmth.
A cry of pain,
never heard.
A pack long gone,
life taken away.
A cry of sorrow,
echoing into nothing.
The lone wolf's cry,
never wanted.
A quiet forest,
now there are two.
A lone wolf's cry,
no longer alone.
-=Andrew "§quirrels" Flanagan=- Aspiring writer, artist, and graphic designer.
Current Residence: FL Favourite genre of music: techno, metal Favourite style of art: Abstract Operating System: Windows 7 Shell of choice: turtle ^^ Wallpaper of choice: I prefer bare walls... Favourite cartoon character: Philip J Fry (futurama) Personal Quote: live long or die trying
Favourite Movies
monty python and the holy grail
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Infected Mushroom
Favourite Writers
Dean Koontz
Favourite Games
World of Warcraft
Favourite Gaming Platform
PC
Tools of the Trade
mind, fingers, keyboard, monitor
Other Interests
writing, photoshopping, music, my ex girlfriend Danielle, etc.
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